A Dwelling Place

1 Chronicles 16:27

Splendor and majesty flow out of HIM, strength and joy fill HIS place.

1 Chronicles 16:34

Give thanks to God - HE is good and HIS love never quits.

Thank you father for the morning morsel of your word. Your dwelling place LORD, is a place where strength and joy fill us. I know that this morning that is what I claim for AL and me, that we would be filled with your strength and joy during this time of loss. My prayer is that we would have your perspective of our lives and of your story. I know a range of emotions are flowing through my heart and mind the past couple of days. I am not sure what to do with all of them, sometimes I guess I just cry. I have heard that crying is your way of healing our hearts. I just want to cling to you during this time but not just when I am hurting but always. I am so grateful for your truths and for the godly man that you picked for me. I am so amazed at the love he shows me, the perspective of our lives he has, and the love he has for you LORD. Again, that you for the amazing blessings you have bestowed upon on our lives. I know in my heart that you have a precious little one for AL and me someday. I pray for that little one that we would raise him/her to have a passionate pursuit for the things of Christ. Hold us close LORD during this time, hold us close for I know you are a good God and your love never quits. NEVER~

Oh what a Loss!

29 November 2009

AL and I experience our first loss together, as we had a miscarriage this past weekend. I can't really describe the heart pain or emotional loss because I know we are still walking through things. I do know that God's peace and strength are amazing. Everyday I awake HE has given me a scripture to walk out through the day. We both have talked so much throughout the week about God is in control and though we might not fully understand and the pain is real it doesn't change that God is still so incredibly good. I know from the very beginning we prayed for a healthy precious little one and for whatever reason that precious little one was meant to live that life in heaven. I know God sees us before we are formed in our mother's womb (Ps. 139) so even as the little one was being formed God saw its future. I know HE has an amazing plan in store for us and know that plan includes a little one...someday. I know we are so blessed and want my heart to stay focused on the blessings, not that the loss isn't real but it is temporary because I know when we get to heaven we will get to hold that little one and see its smiling face.